Why did you change your hair again?

Age 1 month- 2 years, honestly you don’t remember what your hair looked like. You didn’t give a damn about anything except for breast milk.

Age 5, You’re growing up to love everything except for homework from school. Seeing your mother bring food to you makes you the most happiest.

Age 12, suddenly everything seems ugly. Jars of complains in your mind- I’m so FAT!, I’m so DARK!, my hair is SO CURLY!! I hate my hair color. Yup! You know that feeling don’t you?

Age 15, started experimenting on your hair. Day 1- chops of front bangs while trying to keep hands steady. Unfortunately hands are extremely shaky and the bangs are too short not to be noticed. Day 1- Mum notices (of course!! As always) and yells out. You try putting your short bangs back with a hair clip- with zero success. Mind says- you’re so ugly and your hair too!

Age 17, finally out of the cocoon, got your first permanent hair straightening done at a salon. The salon almost burned your hair off but you don’t mind- you just wanna look pretty! Mum says- you look like a lion with that frizzy straight unmanageable hair! But who cares about what mum says!

Age 19, you earn money and you say- I’m gonna make myself pretty with my money! But little do you know, the money you earn from the job you do is only enough for your food and living.

Age 20,You just broke up with your boyfriend after 5 months into relationship and home is not as happy as it used to be. You feel isolated and heartbroken. There’s nothing in the world that makes you happy anymore and then, a bright light turns up. You go towards the bright light to find out it’s the latest fashion magazine filled with latest fashion trends and life hacks. You flick through few pages and BAAAMM.. you see this extraordinary tip, you read- ” Her hair is about to change her life”. Next day, you go the hair salon (this time to a fairly good salon) to dye your hair blonde from black. You look striking with that hair and for the first time people start noticing you. You feel great and not to mention, you also find guys lurking behind you (you Lovvvee it).

Age 25, You think you wanna try something different on your 25th birthday. Maybe turning into exotic red headed for a change from a Blondie doll (Jeez.. major change!). You’ve had enough fun partying but now you want to be bold as well as youthful. You are more passionate about your career and you look even hotter.

Age 27, You stop caring about your looks and you are more focused on your career while piles of responsibilities hit you. Maybe You’ll change your hair back to black. You’re looking for a more reality based life with the balance of seriousness and fun. Then, as soon as you come out of the salon with your new black hair, your friends and family says, “You look beautiful”.

That’s when a strong belief engraves inside your heart and you realize”You’ve always been beautiful”. Perhaps hair cuts, hair color are meant to change your look externally and may help build up your confidence at some point but nothing can change who you really are, you just have to believe in yourself.

P.S: Always remember, You are beautiful.

Where do I “start” from?

This morning, I sat down in my leathery smelling leather couch (it’s new by the way) and i couldn’t believe i finished three movies by the afternoon. Nothing to eat but just orange juice which tasted like the sweetest honey ever! I couldn’t stand wasting my day by just watching movies (I do not mean to say they were horrible movies.. they were great! have you watched Wanted?- of course not the Bollywood one i’m talking about the movie which features Angelina jolie, James McAvoy, Morgan Freeman, Chris pat and so on…any-ho lets not get stuck here).

I started thinking of the things to do- obviously couldn’t think of any. I started wondering about my career and my future. I’ve always been fascinated by fashion, glamour, beautiful photography, DIY’s however, i seem to be standing in a pathway of saving other life-  A NURSE! Finishing my nursing degree after 4 years of hard work i’m starting to think whether nursing is or isn’t meant for me. (Stupid thinking)! I’ve worked as a student nurse in several hospitals and always try viewing myself in the position of the nurse i worked with that day but i could never see myself there. I’ve always wondered “IS THIS THE RIGHT THING FOR ME? HAVE I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE NURSE?”

The fact is, I’ve always wanted be a designer, maybe a makeup artist, maybe a creative DIY lady with millions of fans Ug-uh!! It’s still a “MAYBE”. That is why i choose to blog it all up. I want to jot down everything i see, feel, wear, eat and the most importantly the things i love and makes me happy. After all, Happiness is all that matters. So, brace yourself for there are many more posts to come 🙂

Ps: Coffees help me explore the thoughts in my mind.

Love

Raisha (Thisgirlsthoughts)