The Solo list.

Alone today? Your friend didn’t turn up? Don’t have anyone to go out with? Or just waiting for someone at the shopping centre? Here are some things I would do, and I think you can do too..

• Go for a coffee. You can sit down and watch people while you sip your bitter sweet coffee in a big mug. You won’t even realize when you’ve finish your coffee. Let me tell, the combination is amaze- ing!
•  Buy yourself a jewellery. Go to Pandora, prouds, bevillis and I bet your bucket that they have affordable sterling silver jewellery (if you’re on the rich side, buy yourself a diamond ring). C’mon girl pamper your soul.
• Treat yourself with ice cream. You don’t need a buddy to share that ice cream moment. Damn girl! You share that creamy delight with your taste buds.
• Go window shopping. Act like you’re a badass rich woman. If you can’t buy ’em you can at least pretend like you’re about to. You won’t believe how many good stuffs you’ll eye on and then jot it down in your wish list! Hey, no problem with having a wish list alright.
• People watch. You can criticize people on your mind there’s no one to judge you. Or mind pat someone’s shoulder if you think they are well dressed. Time will fly.
•  Talk to a random person (I would recommend an old person) and vent on them. You never know you might get inspired by that person. Because seniors knows the best!
• Search for free wifi. Shopping centres are loaded with free wifi. Make the most outta that free network. Don’t flick through dirty stuffs though as you know people’s eyes are everywhere!
• And last but not the least, poop. Save your water bills and toilet rolls at home.

Enjoy.xx

Haku namatata list

Today, i’m going to haku namatata your life. Yup! Haku namatata. (I wish I could show you how my face looks when I say haku namatata out loud- oh boy I look funny haha). I was obsessed with the lion king not to mention I’d still die to watch it again for the 2000th times. Anyways, Getting back.. Haku namatata meaning “Don’t worry, be happy” in Swahili language (common among the African great lake region).

I’m going to tell you some haku namatata secrets that you can find  without trying or buying! Because we don’t need the most glamorous items to make us happy, Instead, we can find our life contentment around us (In our everyday life).

Lets see what we have here, things that can make us go “Haku namata”;

1. A nice lovely morning wake up (Being grateful to be alive).
2. A hot cuppa coffee.
3. Family
4. A good, sweaty workout
5. A song that reminds you of some good memories.
6. A song that make you dance.
7. Amazing lights at night
8. Stars
9. Post-rain earthy breeze
10. Nice warm blanket.
11. Laughter.
12. Learning something after your mistake
13. Knowing that someone loves you back
14. A Hug
15. A nice big deep breath

xx

 

Vent on me. xx

It’s 2:05 AM. I should be asleep but I’m solely sitting down infornt of my computer with my tiny night lamp while i listen to the silent night. It’s so peaceful outside, the stars are out  where as, my mind is hairy and tangled up. I’ve been thinking about most of the horrifying events that has occurred to me during these past few weeks. It has been mentally, emotionally, physically and financially challenging. But right now, as i breath in the fine and crisp air entering through my wide open window i say to myself “I SURVIVED, AND NOW, I SHALL HUNT FOR HAPPINESS”.

I’d never thought i was strong enough to fight through boiling emotions, betrayal and financial trauma. Now, I feel stronger than ever together with the feeling of content. I know i cannot change or turn things around since I’ve lost it but i cannot also run and hide away from life nor can I reverse the whole situation. I had to cope with it So, i did. I turned my sadness, disappointment and frustration into an angry battlefield. I fought back my tears, feeling of hopelessness, emotions and forced myself to get up and start working on what I’d missed out. I’ve always been taught to act calm even in the worst event and that’s what I did. I stayed calm even though my heart was racing twice more than normal and my legs felt numb.

And if you’re reading this right now, I’m still here! If I can do it, you can do it too. If you’re feeling lonely, depressed, bullied, hopeless or rejected don’t stay quiet. Do not put a fake smile around your face and tell others “you’re doing fine”. The best thing to do is to – blow off the long flickering candle, pack your emotions of hopelessness, go find a person you trust and vent your spleen on them. if you don’t have anyone you trust, VENT IT ON ME! I assure you I’ll listen to you as I have humble ears to listen to you.

 

xx

Mind your own business.

 

When i say “MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS” i mean i want JUSTICE. 

I mean to say “Please don’t meddle around my life because mind your own business”. 

When you say “You want to invite me over dinner!”

Just because you feel like feeding a homeless person.

Then i would politely say ” Don’t mind a homeless person’s business”

 Because even a homeless person has the right of privacy. Let them have their space.

When a woman fights with her man, Please mind your own business

Because I would like to politely say ” She has the full legal rights to fight”

When you say ” But they don’t understand each other” 

I say ” Mind your own business” if you still don’t get what i said “Go understand yourself and fix your problems first”. Don’t come barging in my life 30 years later saying “I love cats, I’m a cat lady”

 

When you say “Listen to my opinion because it matters the most”

I would politely say ” Go cook yourself your own opinion and feed your opinion to your brains and Go mind your own business”.

When you say “You’re concerned they haven’t reached their goals yet”. 

I would like to politely say “You don’t know, They might have something else planned for themselves, you be concerned for yourself and GO mind your own business”.

 If you see me walking down the road laughing and rejoicing for some reason you don’t know, then, please don’t thrust your nose into my happiness

Because then i would politely say ” It’s my headache. Please go Mind your own business”.

 

When Dreams become reality

Looking back, I remember the very moment  i got my visa to move to Melbourne, Australia. My eyes lit and my heart was filled with joy. The only reason i got my Australian visa was purely because of my DAD, for which i am very thankful . I remember the time he was running around like a maniac from one governmental institution to the other while i was running after him with a nicely stacked file in my hand. After all my Dad’s hard work i was granted visa to travel all the way to Australia to study further and achieve my goals. Meanwhile, I was also excited that i was going to experience “independence” and “freedom” as i heard people talking about it. But little did i know what the  word “independence” and “freedom” meant.

It took me several of years to settle down in Melbourne. I must admit i was a bit dull. I can never forget getting panic attacks and mental blocks as soon i was in the spotlight for ordering food at McDonald’s or Subway. Even talking to new people made me nervous. I’ve offended many people with my awkward silence because i had no answers. I didn’t understand even a single sentence spilled an Australian’s mouth. How could i not figure out that slang words are like virus, it’s everywhere. Just like Nepalese people have uncountable slang words like jharpat (meaning nonsense), sala (originally meaning wife’s brother however it’s used to curse someone) Australians have zillions of slang words too.

Anyways, after my first month in Aussie land I was enthusiastic to work and earn money. People said “Enjoy your first month in Australia as i will never come”. It found it very absurd until i experienced a whole new life. I started working as a housekeeper at an apartment downtown during the day while i also worked as a waitress in a Turkish restaurant until late. Some days, i had school start early in the morning so i had to balance out school with work and not to mention sleep. I barely slept 4 hours at night. Some mornings i woke up feeling numb and sore all over my body while some mornings turned into nights. I crawl up to bed at 7 in the morning after a long busy day as well as night having achieved buckets of sweats and exhausted.

I was falling deeply into life’s restriction where i didn’t see a single sign of freedom. Working like a donkey wasn’t freedom for me then. Earning money, but having to spend all the hard earned money for my school fee wasn’t independence anymore. Uncountable debts for the sake of education was strangling me. The meaning of life seemed so opposite while i felt trapped in the world of freedom. I dared to dream but i started thinking i was at the wrong place to be dreaming. It was true! I am in reality where dreams are achieved after immense hard work and patience. Dreaming a little dream is not enough, instead i have to wake up and take actions to see that little dream come alive.

The most important thing is I should not give up. As once said by the renowned author Dale Carnegie, “We should develop success from failures. Discouragement and failure are two of the surest stepping stones to success”.   I  believe some day the doors will open and I’ll breath freedom. My willpower will over rid my opposite meaning of life while my independence will knock on my door.

xx